I'm not an easy target

I want to be cold - emotionless - be free - deaf to that explaining voices in my mind -  unexpecting - without those burdens - integrated fantasies - fatal idealism - I dont want invent stories - I dont want escape - escape is refuse the fright of my heart - cold to see it directly to his deep black eyes - dark eyes of a white soul - a finite soul - a finite body - a finite life... lost in action - foolishness - dumbness - anxiety - meaningless - I'm not an easy target - complexes mind stages - emptiness - star night - moon died - no, she's not -  she is feeding of us - we are finite - almost machines - please, I need wake up, before the moon raises again -